This Love Terrifies Me

I am scared. This is scary,
terrifying
I love you. I want to have you forever,
but there is no forever,
we all wither and die.
I don't want the pain of ever losing you, and I don't want you to ever hurt.
Every day more, that I love you,
is filled with this fear that I will lose you somehow.
This is dreadful.
It is no wonder, some people just run. Sometimes I want to run, to avoid the inevitable pain.
I have to remind myself that if I run, I will miss out on everything beautiful.
If I miss the beauty, there won't be any loss, there won't be any "missing;"
but you are so worth missing.
I want to keep you forever.