TRYING TO FIND THE ANSWERS

you come to me in my dreams
begging forgiveness
we meet in a place from our past life when you had capacity you now lack
how is it that you've taken a step back in this life?
i thought we were supposed to move forward, i thought our souls were supposed to grow
i am left with questions.
do i wait until your inner core awakens again in this life
or do i just give up on now, and wait to be with you in the next life.

yes, i remember how good it was before this life, when we lived in the jungle,
because your true self keeps coming to remind me about it in my sleep, but why won't you remind YOURSELF, because all you do is frustrate me.

begging me to wait until you are ready.

my soul is lonely. LONELY, because your stupid ass isn't fucking ready to attain your higher existence. how do you go through your days at such a downgraded level from where you had been?

and i am stricken with another question... will i be in the wrong, seeking another soulmate, when i already KNOW that your soul has been asking mine to just wait?

my life is a perpetual lesson in patience and loss. i attain something only to lose it. you come and go because in your true core, you know i'm not going anywhere.

i want to go! please love me or release me.
GET UP TO MY LEVEL because you're only hurting the both of us and we cannot get anywhere like this.

i am at such a loss here.
i miss our old life before this one.
but that was then and this is now, and i seem to be the only one who remembers in their waking hours.

i want someone else... so please release me.
i want to be loved in THIS lifetime, not have to wait until the next.